Katie--ox

-I've loved && lost :[
You get to know someone for a fair few months && become pretty close && then they just fade away && change before you.Which hurts more than anything cos you know you CANNOT do anything about it what soo ever && just have to stand by && watch while it happens && leaves you feeling nothing but useless.You have those phone calls when just hearing his voice cheers you up && recieving those texts makes you smile more than anything.You spend soo much of your time talking to him to try && get to know him that much better && cos it made you soo happy but things change && soo do people i guess..You HATE too admit that things have changed but you just have to learn to accept it before it gets harder.You would do ANYTHING! to have them days back but its to late at times for that no matter how much it hurts you have to carry on.I can forgive && i do believe in second chances i guess it depends who i think is even worth my second chances...
You DO miss them && it hurts to even admit that you do but its something you HAVE to face in life i guess...
I guess i just fall way to quickly && deeply....


-I get told im perfect at times by people =/ which tbh at times does annoy me cos to me im really NOT anything of the sort.I make way to many mistakes && let people down including myself at times...


-I get called a snob && other names at times which doesnt really bother me.Im NOT at all of the sort.I do talk fairly well && stuff at times but its just the way i have been brought up tbh && i havent always gone without things that i wanted.But that DOESNT mean that i am rich or whatever you want to call me.But you can call me whatever you want tbh i really DO NOT care....


-I have the tendancy to take things out on others mostly the people i love && i do it every single time.I dont mean to i truly DONT but when things get to tough for me i guess i just like to hide away its nothing personal to them its just the way i try to deal with things.I get affected by change && situations way to easily i cant help it its just me && the way i am.I shut people out when maybe i need them the most.I try to deal with things on my own until it all gets too much && i do back to them for help cos i know i CANNOT deal with it without them :] I have the same group of the most amazin friends that always get me through it all && without them i wouldnt be who i am today...


-I get affected by change too easily--I try NOT to let things get to me but at times i cannot help it things just hit you right in the face && bug you to much its unreal.I mean you CAN try to not think about things but tbh it doesnt really work like that does it?
I HATE it when things change && things are no longer the same as they used to be.Thats one of my REAL weaknesses cos it breaks me && affects me badly....


-Im a HIGHLY emotional person--I cry over the smallest && perhapes silliest of things i ALWAYS have done really.Even over soaps on tele i sometimes cry how bad lol..But at times when i cry i REALLY do cry && it feels like im not ever going to stop =/ I can become hyper at any time sooo beware ;] lol I can talk about the MOST random things ever its crazy but i love it cos tbh its better than being boring it shows i have personality muchh...

-I have been bullied in the past when i was younger which i happenend to get depressed Funnily enough though the person that bullied me became one of my best friends a few years later && told me the reasons for her bullying me which was down to nothing less than shear jealously..I still find it astounding even today how anyone could possibley be jealous of me.It's obsurb to be honest.Im nothing to be envied of what so ever in my eyes....